I'm here, I'm gay, get used to it! By Matt Kelty

Well, this is the first of what will be several personal diary entries- just to get things started. Then hopefully this site can become a thriving hub of gay support for people like me who can not express their homosexuality openly in their home towns.

My name is Matt Kelty, and I am gay. I have always been gay, but have never acted upon my homosexual desires or talked with anyone about it until now.

Recent events in my life have strained the relationship with my wife and children. As I feel pushed further and further away from them, I feel like I can finally start to open up and be who I truly am. I have pretty much already lost them, and everything else in my life from being deceitful and lying to myself and everyone else in my life. If I have already lost it all, I might as well break down my barriers and just be myself.

A few months ago I tried to sell my house to pay bills, but that was unsuccessful. I had to move my family out to a "lake house"....but the truth is that its a tailor on the side of an algae pond. My family is so mad at me that I sleep outside most of the time.

I am on trial near the end of October for some stupid decisions I made and lied about, and part of me hopes they find me out for the fraud I was and send me to prison. I know it sounds strange for someone to actually want to go to prison, but for me- it sounds like the change I need. It would be time away from my family, time away from the pressure of keeping up the lies I've created, and time to spend alone with men and explore my true sexual desires.

Don't get me wrong, the point of this is not all about gay sex, but yes- it is on the top of my mind. I guess its because it has always been so taboo to me, and after all these years feeling an attraction to men but never acting on them, I am constantly thinking about gay sex.

But, as the title of this blog says, this is a gay republican support group- some sex talk is fine, but lets focus on the personal issues gay republicans face.

This is all I am up to writing for now, if you have any input- please speak up and help me get the ball rolling on this.

Thanks for listening!